PRESENT

We all go through different stages in our lives...going to school, starting new jobs, getting married, having babies, dealing with life and death in between, and finding ourselves along the way. With the busy "To-Do" list planning a wedding has provided me, I see how easy it is to get caught up in the hustle & bustle of life. Time goes by, memories fade... Because of this, recently, I had an epiphany. It finally became clear to me that no matter where I am, how I am feeling, what I am doing, I need to be PRESENT in my own life. It is my goal to do just that.

I want to soak up the pain I feel when I'm running, pushing myself to go another mile, & the soreness I feel the next day.

I want to say "I'm bored" less, & be thankful for those moments of peace in my life.

I want to hold on to the afternoons of laughter I share with the girls at work, & remind myself of them when I'm having a rough day on the unit.

I want to reflect upon my memories with my grandma so that I never have to think I'm forgetting how her perfume smelled, or how she looked & sounded when she laughed.

I want to appreciate the chaos that comes with wedding planning, because it reminds me how excited I am to be marrying my best friend.

I hope to enjoy a tiny moment of peace & solitude before walking down the aisle so I can remember that anxious, exciting feeling...that after 6 years my soon-to-be husband is still HOT to me, still gives me butterflies... so that after 56 years I can remember that's how he made me feel.

Trying to be as open as possible to feeling as much as I can has made me way more emotional than I ever thought it would. I don't know why I expected anything different...when you open yourself to feel, you react. I cry way more than I used to, both when things make me happy & sad. It's not a bad thing...sometimes it makes me laugh at myself...I'm turning into such a sap lol.

Now that THAT'S all out of the way, I'm REALLY excited for today! My mom is coming over after she gets off work, & we are going shopping for her dress for the wedding!!! It's been a long time since it's just been me & my mom. I'm really looking forward to it! She won't get here until 4...so I need to see how much time running & cleaning house can take :) Then tomorrow I need to talk Daniel into going to pick out his tux & his wedding band (he's so much pickier than I was!) Have a great Labor Day weekend!!!