Struggling

I know I'm not alone in this. I know these thoughts go through every woman's mind. I've just never struggled with it this much before. I am having some issues with my body image. Maybe because I've gotten away with not sticking to a workout routine so many times before; maybe because I'm getting older; probably a combination of both.

Let me preface this by saying I know I'm small. I know there are so many who have a more difficult time with this than I do, & when I think about it that way I feel foolish for worrying about it at all. The thing is, this is a new issue for ME. This is a battle going on in MY head, toward MY body.

I've gained some weight...probably 7 lbs or so since my wedding (so in the last year). That's not really the part I care about, though. I promise that the number isn't an issue. The issue is the part of my back that sticks out over my jeans once I get them buttoned. The issue is the gut I now have all the time that I used to be able to excuse as a "food baby" after meals. I'm approaching a point where I am going to have to start buying the next size up in jeans... I feel pretty defeated right now. I know, I know....wah wah wah.

SO. Now it's time to do something about it, because I can't afford to spend the money on new clothes. Before dinner tonight, I plan on starting. I have a BIGGEST LOSER DVD that im going to start working out to until I can afford the gym membership required to take the body pump class here in Greenfield. I hope I don't let myself give up on this. I love running & I know once I get back into a routine I'll love working out again.

Here's to not having to but new clothes....