It's been a while since I've blogged....the number 1 reason being that I let the Twilight Saga take over my life. I read the books in a week, then I watched all the movies. Then I watched all the movies. Then I watched...you get the idea.
Then I found out my little sister...my little "feel your heart beat within my chest" baby Samantha....is pregnant!! My reaction for the first 2 hours or so was stunned. I'm the oldest, I'm supposed to have babies first, how is she going to cope if something goes wrong, how can I take the pain away if .... I can't. I have no control. I'm going to have to fight with her crazy (I really do love her) mother-in-law for any kind of private time with Sam & my new niece/nephew. Is she going to listen to her about what happens during pregnancy & what her fetus looks like at X gestation? Or will she be able to ask her NICU NURSE SISTER all those important questions? Will I be able to help her? A few weeks later, I'm finding out that she has questions for me almost daily, & that makes me feel so good! (how selfish is that?). After all those thoughts, I was able to be excited. Still nervous as hell for her, seeing what I see on a daily basis....but so so excited to be an aunt.....to have a little person to invite over to spend the night....to spoil like crazy....to watch grow & learn & know that a minute part of that will come from me....to look at this creature & see my sister....TO LOVE THIS BABY!!!!
Then we had Christmas. I didn't put up a tree. Pick your mouth up off the floor. I didn't put up a tree. Christmas was rushed. I worked Christmas day, had a few hours here & there with our families (which was fantastic), but I wasn't really excited about it this year. I'm not sure why. It came, it went...now I'm happy for a few days off work & to get to REALLY spend time with our families.
Sending peace, love, & lots of luck to those Hoosiers!
I can't get on board with the hoosier talk since I Boiler up all the way, but its nice to read an update on your pretty face. I love you.
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